Hell is empty, all the Devils are here...

What's happening... now?

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Thu, 15 Oct 2009 01:47:21 GMT

Nothing new to report. I'm actually feeling much better today than I have in a while. I'm still trying to find a happy medium with my meds, but at least I got something that's working.

Work has been okay so far. Everyone has been super understanding and I'm doing things at my own pace, which is nice.

I'm still feeling pretty tired though... this has been my hardest cycle yet. Carlos has been doing everything, I almost feel bad. He's been pulling double daddy/husband duties. Don't know what I'd really do without him.

Hopefully I'll be feeling much better this weekend, cuz I gotta go buy a costume for the little one. She wants to be Spongebob :D - I still don't know what I'm gonna be, but what ever it is, it better be rocking!

Bleh. There's a pillow with my name on it and I can't wait to put my head to. Nap it is.

*hearts*

Originally published at +Voodoo Envy+.

Gacela of the Dark Death by Federico Garcia Lorca

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Sun, 04 Oct 2009 06:08:49 GMT

I want to sleep the dream of the apples,
to withdraw from the tumult of cemeteries,
I want to sleep the dream of that child
who wanted to cut his heart on the high seas.

I don't want to hear again that the dead do not lose their blood,
that the putrid mouth goes on asking for water.
I don't want to learn of the tortures of the grass,
nor of the moon with a serpent's mouth
that labors before dawn.

I want to sleep awhile,
awhile, a minute, a century;
but all must know that I have not died;
that there is a stable of gold in my lips;
that I am the small friend of the West wing;
that I am the intense shadow of my tears.

Cover me at dawn with a veil.
because dawn will throw fistfuls of ants at me.
and wet with hard water my shoes
so that the pincers of the scorpion slide.

For I want to sleep the dream of the apples,
to learn a lament that will cleanse me of the earth;
for I want to live with that dark child
who wanted to cut his heart on the high seas.

Originally published at +Voodoo Envy+.

My Thotz in Plain Color...

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Sun, 13 Sep 2009 19:01:34 GMT

17:44 Urrrrgg... #
10:31 Football!!! <3 #
10:32 @paulsomething <3 #

From Twitter 09-09-2009

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Thu, 10 Sep 2009 10:01:36 GMT

Another chemotherapy day down... One more to go!
New blog post: Chemotherapy http://voodooenvy.com/2009/09/chemotherapy/
Ugh! I was not able to hold down food. I still have to eat so I'll have to try to see if I can get toast to stay. We shall see...

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Chemotherapy

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Wed, 09 Sep 2009 21:22:32 GMT

So I finally started my chemotherapy yesterday. It was some 4.5 hours, but it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. For the most part I was just cold and slightly queazy. I did get more nauseous as I got home but I got some meds and ginger tea/candy helped bunches.

I haven't been eating as much... just can't stomach the thought.

Nurse told me that one of my chemo drugs (I take two) is the one that makes me crazy nauseous and that I will probably feel the side-effects for the next seven days -oh joy!- I said... "It can't be worse than having morning sickness all day." It's not. It's more annoying.

Had my second session today. It was only two hours. Tomorrow is my last session (another two hours) and then I'm done for the month.

I'll be going back October 6th for my second round of chemo. Will probably lose my hair then... I'll be rocking though. I look good in any hair style and I always wondered if I had a pretty head. I'll be sporting the baldie for a while but it will be much fun to play with. Then I some new hair and I'm hoping its as pretty as my daughter's.

I will go back to work next week -thank GOD!- I'm not one to stay at home all the time and just do nothing productive. Work will keep my mind off things. So all it's all good. Everyone there is understanding and I'm sure the change in atmosphere will do my soul some wonders. I'm a little apprehensive though, since it's been a long while since I've worked, but I'm sure in a week or two it will be just like old times and I'll be kicking some major booty.

Anyway... all in all, things are good. Or as good as they are gonna get. I'll take it one day at a time and see how I feel later on.

I'll keep you all's posted - XOXO

Sonnet XVII (Soneto XVII) by Pablo Neruda

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Wed, 09 Sep 2009 01:11:32 GMT

I do not love you
as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way

than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

*********

No te amo como si fueras rosa de sal, topacio
o flecha de claveles que propagan el fuego:
te amo como se aman ciertas cosas oscuras,
secretamente, entre la sombra y el alma.

Te amo como la planta que no florece y lleva
dentro de sí, escondida, la luz de aquellas flores,
y gracias a tu amor vive oscuro en mi cuerpo
el apretado aroma que ascendió de la tierra.

Te amo sin saber cómo, ni cuándo, ni de dónde,
te amo directamente sin problemas ni orgullo:
así te amo porque no sé amar de otra manera,

sino así de este modo en que no soy ni eres,
tan cerca que tu mano sobre mi pecho es mía,
tan cerca que se cierran tus ojos con mi sueño.

My Thotz in Plain Color...

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 19:03:27 GMT

18:05 @supermaniaco65 vlingo is like double posting all your tweets. You should fix-y. #
08:45 Finally @ my doctor's for my chemotherapy treatment :) - today will be here for four & a half hours. #

From Twitter 09-07-2009

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 10:01:48 GMT

@supermaniaco65 vlingo is like double posting all your tweets. You should fix-y.

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My Thotz in Plain Color...

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Thu, 27 Aug 2009 19:01:19 GMT

15:16 @supermaniaco65 you're the man Tim. You're the man... #
18:58 @raining_silence twitpic.com/fea5a - HA! You lucky dawg! #

From Twitter 08-26-2009

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Thu, 27 Aug 2009 10:01:45 GMT

Out in Malibu... enjoying the view...
Beautiful day http://twitpic.com/fcmjg
@supermaniaco65 you're the man Tim. You're the man...
@raining_silence http://twitpic.com/fea5a - HA! You lucky dawg!

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From Twitter 08-25-2009

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Wed, 26 Aug 2009 10:02:02 GMT

08:12:07: @wiccabuffy I have not even requested Cindy's yet.... Guess I should.

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From Twitter 08-24-2009

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Tue, 25 Aug 2009 10:02:46 GMT

16:42:48: Today I had an internal dialogue that went something like..."Shit! How old am I? I'm...28, right?! Damn it! I'm 28..."
23:21:18: @sheslikemercury Good for you :)

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From Twitter 08-23-2009

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Mon, 24 Aug 2009 10:01:52 GMT

14:59:37: @raining_silence http://twitpic.com/f13ht - Kitty!!!!!

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From Twitter 08-22-2009

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Sun, 23 Aug 2009 10:02:06 GMT

01:56:04: @supermaniaco65 @bittersweet46: Thank you... for Cachuma.
10:09:29: @atomiceyes @raining_silence of course all you guys. Can't believe I can say that I've known you for years!
10:10:10: @atomiceyes poor doggie. Bleh cancer.
12:45:49: Japanese Journal of Cancer Research founded in 1907. Oldest periodicals in the world, in field of cancer research. http://budurl.com/shq9
12:46:22: @atomiceyes <3 hugzies.

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From Twitter 08-21-2009

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Sat, 22 Aug 2009 10:02:10 GMT

12:38:14: RT @know_cancer: Genetic Cancer Testing - Learn about Human Genes, BRCA1 and BRCA2. http://budurl.com/za6h #cancer
12:38:26: RT @sheslikemercury: TGIF!!!
15:01:01: @atomiceyes very cool tattoo. Where are you getting it?
16:45:05: @atomiceyes once my chemo is over, i'll be getting some tattoos done as well :)
16:46:59: @raining_silence http://twitpic.com/erk7e - Werd...
16:48:01: @eddieizzard @_@ wow! Way to go!!
16:51:28: @dark_wesley they're just bastards. BTW... Just for shits & giggles: http://www.passiveaggressivenotes.com
16:56:13: @supermaniaco65 @eddieizzard Super human? Alien? WTF! I don't know... But when I grow up I wanna be like Eddie.
17:00:53: @raining_silence meh. On bed rest. But I get to stay in touch with the real world with my iPhone :) & you Missy? I miss my old crew!
19:24:35: @raining_silence http://twitpic.com/es7y5 - I so am.
21:08:03: @raining_silence Haven't talked to Jeff in a long time. Today I was thinking I should email him. I do speak to other peeps from time to time

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From Twitter 08-20-2009

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Fri, 21 Aug 2009 09:47:30 GMT

09:29:52: @sheslikemercury I. Must. Watch. !!!
09:31:14: Made another trip to the ER last night due to my arm & Port IV. I'm ok, but my chest/shoulder/arm hurt like all hells. I got rotten luck.
21:07:07: I wont cry, it'll be fine. I'll take my last breath. Push it out my chest 'til there's nothing left.
- Hollywood Undead

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From Twitter 08-19-2009

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Thu, 20 Aug 2009 09:03:35 GMT

00:22:36: @atomiceyes I got so many random add ons it's not even funny. I think it has to do with the content of your twees or something like that.

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From Twitter 08-18-2009

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Wed, 19 Aug 2009 09:03:46 GMT

15:42:23: Sorry I have not been around much. Just kinda 'meh' lately.
15:45:41: Hurt myself somehow w/the port iv that's in my chest while sleeping & now I can't move my right arm without causing it some severe pain.
15:46:03: Me = Lame *sigh*
19:53:24: @supermaniaco65 can't wait :)

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From Twitter 08-10-2009

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Tue, 11 Aug 2009 09:04:28 GMT

11:28:58: VoodooBanshee: Tweet.

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From Twitter 08-08-2009

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Sun, 09 Aug 2009 09:03:12 GMT

22:18:57: VoodooBanshee: @supermaniaco65 I'd like to see you hit 30....

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From Twitter 08-07-2009

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Sat, 08 Aug 2009 09:05:35 GMT

07:53:40: VoodooBanshee: @kriscynical yay!!!! I'm so glad that's all she's got to do. How long will she have to do it for?
19:09:18: VoodooBanshee: @kriscynical sounds about right. Good luck to her. Hope everything goes well.
19:10:27: VoodooBanshee: @supermaniaco65 Where are you guys? I wanna start messing around. By the time y'all get here I'll be clonked out.
19:12:35: VoodooBanshee: @wiccabuffy yeah... Next time I plan something like this I'll have to make it a point to atleast make lunch or dinner plans with you guys.

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From Twitter 08-06-2009

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Fri, 07 Aug 2009 09:55:35 GMT

08:54:07: VoodooBanshee: @kriscynical yay!
08:55:36: VoodooBanshee: Today was my last day of radiation. Yay!!!! Now I get to let my body rest for about 3-4 weeks before I start chemotherapy.
20:15:03: VoodooBanshee: Currently in Oxnard... On our way to Santa Barbara.

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From Twitter 08-04-2009

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Wed, 05 Aug 2009 09:03:38 GMT

06:58:19: VoodooBanshee: @superstarweirdo <3 feel better soon!!
23:22:09: VoodooBanshee: New manga love: Black Bird - http://tinyurl.com/kuu77f - if you have not read it, then you're missing out...

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From Twitter 08-03-2009

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Tue, 04 Aug 2009 09:03:47 GMT

12:50:20: VoodooBanshee: RT @know_cancer: "Beads of Courage", an inspirational program helping children cope with cancer. http://budurl.com/xadd <-- watch the video
12:53:24: VoodooBanshee: @kriscynical yea... It does <3
16:25:33: VoodooBanshee: @eddieizzard <3
19:11:59: VoodooBanshee: @dark_wesley Oh Panda... You fail at O-Chiken...
20:14:06: VoodooBanshee: @supermaniaco65 That... Is pretty nasty.

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New layout & banner

voodoobanshee@livejournal.com — Mon, 03 Aug 2009 17:49:21 GMT

So I finally got around to getting a new layout up... as always I'm keeping my dark layout scheme and also using one of my favorite artist's work (with her consent of course) as the main theme [KariNComA].

Still tweaking here and there. I will probably add some pink in there somewhere cuz, heck, it's my favorite color.

Hope y'all like it!